Everything happens for a reason

had a family dinner today to celebrate my bday in advance..and my bro and his gf are in the midst of applying for a flat..so they were joking abt having a walk-in wardrobe just like in the heineken ad. then my bro’s gf commented that my bro’s ‘walk-in freezer’ wld be full of coke instead of beer. and i realised..i didn’t know what it wld be full of if she hadnt said that. then i tried to think of what other ppl’s freezers wld be full of..and it was a little hard trying to come up with the answers. it may seem trivial, basically u just need to know what a person’s fav food/drink is in order to answer, but it surprised (and saddened) me that i didn’t really noe for quite a few ppl i thought of.

disclaimer:
anyway im a hate-the-behavior-not-hate-the-person kind of person, so if u think i’ve been shooting u in my blog, it’s not u, it’s probably just sth u’ve done, but i don’t hate u or judge u or make up gossip abt u. i believe we all have our good and bad sides, so lets leave the judging up to God.

the dark cloud has returned to haunt me. it’s an oppressing ominous thing i try not to see so i can get by without feeling guilty. haiya..

i havent checked my ntu mail since i ended work last last mon..just slipped my mind in the midst of enjoying my hols. but haiya. i just checked it today and saw that one of the PEs i registered for is gona be closed cos too few ppl registered. my advanced quanti! SIANNNN. thought i cld finally be like a real researcher and conduct experiments! boo lah. why only 5 ppl register. can’t u all see it’s gona be a fun module? now im stuck with stats. which was my original choice but after that i convinced myself to heck the lousy timing and go for advanced quanti so now my original choice feels sucky.

irritating.

went back to see trg today..and it’s nice to see everyone improving..keep it up! and to me, i’m glad i made myself sweat and exercise everyday this wk! haha..although no effects yet..but at least i feel stronger and healthier now.. not the nua pao that i was sitting in office all day last time. now i just need to be stricter with my diet. haha..jiayou.

erm. how is it any different from u all gg to other teams to play/train/teach? its really not such a big deal what..nobody’s hurting anybody so leave it alone already. she’s free to do what she wants.

why cant everyone just be nice.

had a lovely evening with mc..we walked from my place to the prata house for dinner. and altho im supposed to be on diet, i still gave in to the gloriously satisfying indian food. at least i tried to exercise as much as possible by running before meeting mc. and the long walk there and back also burnt some calories..so i shall not beat myself up over some pratas.

its so great eating sinful food after avoiding them for so long. like that time when we ate mac after so long..my cheeseburger tasted like the most exquisite thing on earth. before that, the last time i ate mac was japan lor, cant believe i actually stayed away from macs for one and a half months.

ok anw back to my great evening, i love walking! i think good outings shld involve long walks..so much time to enjoy the scenery (we had fun oogling at pretty private property along the way) and you can talk and laugh as loud as u want. i always feel so self-conscious talking on the bus or train. and of course, working up a sweat makes me feel much better abt eating later on. haha.

good times are made of these. i don’t want to totter arnd in heels or too-tight clothes or overly expensive places or stupid presents. just my pik piak slippers, cheap good food, and someone who makes me feel so blissfully contented.

oh on a side note, i was watching te4 xie3 just now..it was abt this old lady who’s alr 76 but she still goes to sungei rd to sell used goods everyday in order to support herself. her daily income can range from zero to ten bucks. she has 6 children but NONE of them are able to support her. (what nonsense. can’t even squeeze 10 bucks out for ur mother to feed herself meh.) she even has to support one of her sons who cant find a job because of depression and a past criminal record. and despite her hard life, she still volunteers at a hospice to help other old ppl. so heartbreaking lor..why do good ppl still have to go thru bad things. the old lady is still so optimistic and kind..she even learnt to read and write on her own (she was too poor to get an education when she was young). sigh. be thankful that we are lucky enough to take education and shelter for granted..

since i stopped work on mon, my colleagues have been calling me up at least once every day to ask abt stuff that i handed over to them. does it mean i was valuable during the time i was there? or perhaps it means i didn’t do a good job of handing over when i left? haha..whatever it is, i guess it feels good to feel needed. actually in the last month or two of my internship, i became the most experienced person in my team (other than my supervisor) because the other interns and perm staff joined later than me. so they had to ask me lotsa stuff and get me to teach them how to do many things..which felt good la, although at times i felt abit frustrated that no matter how i teach, some ppl still insist on doing things their own way and end up giving me double work to clean up after them. but still, it’s nice to feel that you’re of some value to the bigger picture ba.

and shldnt all internships be like that? i’ve heard so many stories of interns who are quite redundant at work..sometimes really wonder why these companies sign up to be part of the internship program if they don’t put the interns to real work. waste of money what.

had a yaoguis gathering today to celebrate for the july babies..but only 3 out of 5 yaoguis turned up. hmmm disappointing. get well soon, all who are sick. after dinner we strolled from cityhall all the way to tanjong pagar..hahaha..hope that burnt off a little of what we ate at least. i guess everyone has a different idea of what relaxing after work  means..just like how for some gg home to rest is relaxing enough, while others may feel a need to hit the clubs in order to destress. i think a good long walk like that plus childhood ice cream is enough for me. and ww, dun so stressed! it’s really just a job, sometimes cannot do means cannot do, nth is worth ruining ur health (or skipping lunch) for! i had an ex-colleague who was so stressed out, one night during her OT she just decided to quit. and she just sent us all emails to say bye and never showed up again. haha responsibility issues aside, i think its really quite ke lian to work until like that.

the inspirational quotes on tvmobile are sometimes really quite inspiring. haha..happiness is not a state you arrive at, but a manner of travelling. happy weekend and happy bday to all the july babies

was browsing a cd shop today..and bought a Seal cd on impulse because it sounded so good in the shop. and i’m loving it! melting in his soulful covers of some classic songs like Stand By Me. before this i only knew he sang Kiss from a rose. haha. mc u must listen to this cd! it’s super nice to relax to=) although i think u will prob relax so much that u’ll fall aslp instead.

i think it’s only natural to feel demoralised if ur stunts dun go up the way they used to, but it takes time for the body to get back on form, so dun be so hard on yourself! where’s the pride in saying you can do sth if u didnt work that hard to achieve and maintain it?

just as long as you stand by me.

shiokness. i thought i wld jump awake at 6.30am as usual, but i slept all the way until 12.30pm. like i said, shiokness.

maybe it was singing along to To Be With You..or being surrounded by assessment bks for kids half my age..suddenly hit with the realisation that i was getting old. haha..

anw. i feel that if you go back, you shld contribute. if you don’t contribute, at the very least, don’t create trouble. and trouble comes in many forms..even if you think you’re being a great help, you may be the only person thinking that way. or you may think your trouble-making ways are your own business, but they are only your business if you keep your rubbish wholly to yourself. so think again. nth constructive, shut up.

had a nice day out today..i shld stop trying to be man. the whole world is much easier to maneuvre when i just accept being the way i am deep down.

watched transformers..and as expected..an absolute dream for the male species. i was ok with it la..at least i didnt fall aslp this time haha..yes i actually fell aslp during the first one. anw my ears are dying from all that metal fight scenes! not fun to sit four rows from the front for a show abt robots.

bought prawn crackers from ntuc to munch on during the movie..and mc kept thinking it was very bad of us, he went to buy drink from the movie snack counter just to feel better. but guess what, the couple beside us actually whipped out subway sandwiches once the movie began lor! so prawn crackers is really ok. hahaha.

last day last day last day! LAST DAYYYY!

i must complain.

today at lunch, this woman shared the table with me n fio. and we didnt care abt her, until towards the end of our meal, her fren spotted her and came to chit chat. and then we heard the woman tell her fren not to come so near her, because she just came back from hk and she’s not on home quarantine because she cant take leave! WTH! we were sitting so near her! ta pao la! so considerate towards her fren, then what abt all the ppl she came into contact with by coming to work and to lunch!

PEK CHEK! i so xin ku dun get to see mc for one week because hes on home quarantine and this stupid woman just continues gg to work and eating at crowded places! i wish i cld zap her with my glare!

heard on the radio this morning that michael jackson has passed away. and even tho i wasn’t that much of a fan, it’s still quite saddening..i rmb watching a documentary on him last time..and i felt so sorry for him because he had such a hard childhood as a child star, plus all the criticism and bad publicity he received later on. i wonder if anyone really knew him. maybe he was just a lonely tortured soul struggling to stay sane under the public glare. he was supposed to start his concert tour next month lor.. so poor thing.